if... else...

haha~ guess wht~ this is one of the programming part i'm learning now~

there is something good in this~
this decision making command can be use under 2 condition~

one is with only one 'if'
the other is with 'if...else...'

the single if is used when u are absolutely confirm with what ur statement is about,
and things that came through must be in tht way...

ah well~ in programming of course we encounter this frequently~
the one and only 'if' and one solution~ one answer~
but in life~ i supposed how many people will encounter this type of decision...
even u do~ do u doubt to do the only solution? or u juz simply freaked out?
u know~ sometimes being a man makes u suffered~ we have to deal these stuffs without doubting and feeling~ staying cold as a steel, firm as a mountain... not much excuse to use to escape... T_T

then the second thing can out... we always give us excuse to have 'else'
after 'if'... if tht 'if' is not acceptable... we'll persuade ourself to have 'else'
and after 'else' if there is another 'if' again... then there is always another 'else'
chained up to be endless 'if...else...'
and wihout concious~ slowly, u're leaving ur original goal one step by another...
even u did not moved too far away from goal~ but izzit still the goal u hoped for?
no~ i dun think so~

well~ go back to the single 'if'~ what if we broadened our heart and 'DO IT', and found tht actually it's not a single 'if'... then then... doomed...

ah~ in programming there is so many restart, redo~
sigh~ in life there is no take 2~
sigh sigh sigh~~

ends here~

oh my~ i ran off again~

i'm deaf...
i'm deaf...i'm deaf...
i'm deaf...i'm deaf...i'm deaf...
i'm deaf...i'm deaf...i'm deaf...i'm deaf...
i'm deaf...i'm deaf...i'm deaf...i'm deaf...i'm deaf...
i'm deaf...i'm deaf...i'm deaf...i'm deaf...i'm deaf...i'm deaf...
i'm deaf...i'm deaf...i'm deaf...i'm deaf...i'm deaf...i'm deaf...i'm deaf...

oh~~ i repeated this over and over again~
i think i heard some hints that i shouldn't hear~
but nvm nvm~ pretend i'm noob~ i'm numb~ avoid avoid~

sudden short period deaf~ thts wht i named it~

u know~ girls usually wont speak out loud~ they will keep giving u hints until they give up~
its a good point for male~ either for those who seeking, or those like me~ avoiding~

well~ still avoiding~ even tht i might get the signal wrongly~
but i cant bear to loose the minority of the chances the "thing" occurs...

well well~
i started to write stuffs tht i barely understand~
do u? =P

ends here

The window and I

b4 it starts~ i have to say~ O.O!
i abandoned here for quite some time~ XD
and suddenly recall tht i have a unfinished post to write~

So~~ here it is~

erm~ dunno how to say~ din quite had a good sleep for many nights~
stayed by the window~
watched~
onto the sky~
ah well~
moon was there~
i even stayed until sunrise~
watching the light came from the horizon~
watching the sun popped out~
O.O
dun tell anyone i din slept! shhh~

talk about horizon~
what did u saw from your window?
do we have the same horizon?
is it staying at a higher place means u can see more things? see farer?
well~ in the other hand~
as u stayed at the higher height~
can u still see things that lies below clearly?

there is barely people tht exist at a same horizon~
there is always people seeking for his/her other half that are at the same horizon~
and i supposed how many of them found their the other half?

sometimes~ there are people staying right beside u~
seeing same things as u are seeing~
but did they reached you lvl?
but did they saw the same horizon as u sees?
or did u see the same thing tht they saw?

i barely saw what people sees, even if i saw, most of the time i couldn't understand...
ugh~ pity pity~
i started to wonder izzit this gap causes me having less and less friends?
O.O
O.O
O.O

ugh~ i hv to stop this crap~
this post is super hard to understand... even me myself cant... @.@

ends here

Black Hole~

ugh~ well~ i saw another one lately~

how did a black hole appear?
well~ according to science~ it came along with the end of a planet's life~
"BIG BANG"~~ then here comes the black hole~
pure emptyness~ sucking everything~ even light with such a high speed cannot escape from it it~ well~ after it sucks the light~ it will be only darkness left~ sigh~

ah well~ how did i saw it?? no no~
this black hole is not that black hole~
that black hole only stay quietly at a spot... and only sucks anything that reach it~
but this black hole i mentioned will walk~ it walk and sucks around~
*it sucks* =P

ugh~ maybe i ilustrated too weird rite?
here it goes

BIG BANG~
it means "big bang" lor~
you know~ "big bang" ar~
you dun remember "big bang" meh?
+_+??
okok~
when something happened to you~ too harsh to accept~ spoils you from the inside out~
crushed your heart, your soul, your body, your everything~
thats what i mean "Big Bang"~

Black Hole
Well~ black hole i mean here is a stage naturally a person will go through~
after u get hurt~ you will try as hard as u could to find a cure~ or runaway from it~
while deep inside you know~ there is no cure~ its only "time" can heal your wound~
at this stage~ u hunger~ hunger for anything to everything~ friends, food, entertainment~
while you dont really nid them~
u walk~ like a corpse~
u lives~ as you were dead~
u suck~ as you are a black hole~
you trying to get everything you could~ for you fear to loose anymore of them~
while the fact is~ you loosing more and more of them while you tried to hold them too hard~

The birth of a planet
well~ as the black hole suck and suck~ finally one day~ it will form a whole new planet~
but... but... what it formed is from what it sucked... you can form a lovely planet like earth~
or a red hot chilli mars~

well~ i'd like to say~ everything is gonna be alrite~
even after a planet dies~ it still reborn~
the only thing tht matters is time~

oh~ ok~ why do i say i saw another black hole lately?
because i saw my self from him~ =D
i just realized how stupid am i, when i sees him do the exact same thing as i did...
gosh... god pls forgive my stupidness and brainwash those poor victims~
well~ i wonder if he's still walking and sucks as he was~ dun care~
even i'm still sucking...(yeah i sucks)
well~ but i manage to run away~
you know lor~ planet reborn wor... so important~ incase i sucked the wrong thing~ i'll become ugly~ T_T so i ran away~ at least to not suck on you~ which may hurt you...

al rite~ ends here~
oh my~ i finally wrote something "big bang" =S

Do u like the wrapper or the present inside??

well~ an old question rite?

i had been thinking of it since i get my BD present~
it's a cup~ rat says it's for me to drink coffee~
ah well~ the cup size is a little small tho~ =P
haven thank u guys for it~
ty my classmates~

i found tht~ dunno why~ i carefully tear out the sticker and didn't harm the wrapper at all~
*cheers* x_x"
suddenly the stupid question popped into mind~

do u like the wrapper only? do u like the present inside too??
ah well~ of course many of the experience males would answer~
"Of course the love the present inside more~ not just the wrapper~"
yah~ i was one of those who will answer like that~
but now i asked my self again~ i found different answer~
i treasure both the wrapper and the present~
coz~ a present doesn't looks like one without the wrapper~

well~ it's pity for the wrapper where everytime people gets presents~ they will just tear off the wrapper~ where that is the main purpose of the wrapper~ to sacrifice in order to add in the mysterious part of the present. After the "opening ceremony" the wrapper will not be the wrapper anymore~ just a piece of junk left by people~

ugh... i also dunno why am i pitying on the wrapper~ i think over emo lately huh?

ah well~ another thing i like about the wrapper is~ u can see how much the person who wrap it up treasures u~ (oh ok~ maybe the supermarket girl wrapped it)

well~ ends here~
hope u guys start to treasure the "wrapper" too~ not just the "present"~
=D
u guys guess wht is "wrapper" and wht is "present" la har~

Post Post Post...

Oh~ gosh~ OMG~ last test today~ just finish it~ XD
came to post something~ XD

ok~ ends here~~

>.< (really post something oni)

处女座终极完美分析

都说处女座 另类，双重性格，甚至有点神经质，其实原因只有一个，处女座的一切都要随自己外显的性格而转，姑且称之为'状态'。处女座状态好的时候，可以将自己聪明、 细腻、能干、温情、幽默、有内涵等优良品质完全外展，此时他们显得如此完美，光芒四射，并且可以表现得非常外向、健谈，容易与人打成一片（这本非他们的性 格）。而一旦处女座状态不好，便会变成另一个人，甚至非常窝囊，一事无成，不过通常此时他们都躲避外在的干扰,所以让人感觉有点间歇性自闭症)因为同为水 星守护，所以处女和双子一样善变，但双子善变的是心思，处女善变的却是情绪。

　　
很多时候处女座要面对很多实际的琐事，这时的处女座便不得不在冷中面对周围世界：要么说话做事很不自然，有做作的痕迹；要么便极度冷漠和被动，对谁都不理不睬。其实处女座很清楚自己现在的样子，但他们无力改变和控制自己的情绪，只能选择疯狂地逃避一切。

他 们想的是：与其很不自然地面对你，尴尬地和你说些无关痛痒地话，或是因和平时反差太大而被人说成表里不一，性格怪异，还不如先躲一阵子，等调节好了以后再 出来。所以，在与人交往中，他们只会和不得不交流的人（实在躲不掉）或是完全陌生的人（反正无所谓）交谈，而和熟悉的朋友反而疏远。

所以.你在他心中地位越重，他躲得你越远。特别是恋人.

而 且,大家都知道处女座的人有严重的完美主义倾向,所以就有了所谓的\\'处女座的人最喜欢若即若离\\'。原因很简单：他只想给你一个最好最完美的自己， 而不愿让你看到他无助脆弱的一面。所以请记住，有时处女座对你冷，绝不是你说错做错什么，这是他们正常的生理现象，他们只是不想让严寒和冰霜伤害了你（可 事实上这种做法已经伤害）。不必难过，因为他们在乎你的话，他们的内心比你还要难过、自责和内疚！他们所能做的，只希望快点调整好情绪，回到你的身边。

正基于以上两点，处女座有时便会表现出非常另类的行为和思维模式。他们的性格也很多来源于此：不喜主动，不善交际（也可以热情，只是今天热了，终有一天会冷的），不爱表现，不喜抛头露面（万一哪天情绪无法把握状态不好时，岂不大失脸面），诸如此类。

关于'洁癖'并非处女都有洁癖，很多处女座并不爱干净，但却要求整洁，他们更多的是井然有序，不喜欢别人破坏他们所整理和布置的'完美'格局。处女座更多的是有精神洁癖。一旦触碰到他们精神上的禁区，严重时会表现得歇斯底里。

关 于'花心'一般说来处女座绝不花心，忠诚是他们的代名词。异性关系多很可能是他们需要确定一个好人缘和自己有魅力，来反击那些普遍观点。一旦找到心中真 爱，他会呵护你一辈子，只要你能给他安全感，他永不背叛，心中眼中唯你一人。寻花问柳，红杏出墙这些事与他们绝缘（一是责任感所致，二是怕麻烦）。

关 于'聪明'不似双子灵活机巧，不象水瓶创意非凡，也不是天蝎的那种计画周密，处女座更多体现的是智慧。细腻、理性、好学加上十二星座里一流的洞察力和最强 的逻辑思维能力，处女座想不聪明都难。没事少在处女座面前信口开河，随意撒谎，很多伪纱他们一眼便能看透；也别跟他们玩什么心计，你玩不过他们的。处女是 那种可以把你卖了你还得向他道谢的类型。没事也少跟处女座辩论，他们没理也可找出理，甚至找出不止一条理来。处女是永远不会吃亏的。

关于'单纯'处女座很纯真，但绝不单纯，他们内心复杂得让人难以想象，很多不经意的事可能都是他们精心布置的。处女座也总在纯洁和好色之间徘徊，这一点最难说清。不过他们真正的内心是极其善良的，
宁可自己苦也不愿伤害任何人，心灵如水晶一般晶莹剔透。

关于'幽默'都说处女座冷若冰霜，缺乏幽默。多和他们接触吧，你会体会到什么是冷幽默，什么是真正的幽默，而并非品位低俗的搞笑。

关于'迟钝'别看你和处女座说某些提议时他们半天才反应过来，在你说好的一瞬间，他们脑子里可能已经转过五六个你这项提议会造成的后果（通常是消极后果）了。他们总是想得太多，绝非想得太慢。

关于'自私'处女座的自私觉不是狮子的那种惟我独尊，也不是水瓶的以自我为中心。处女座正因为是无私的，所以显得自私。（能够理解吗？）因为处女不想伤害任何人。

关 于'逃避'由于处女座性格上的因素，他们通常会显得压力很大。当周遭的事物已无法掌控，或是自己的情绪无法调节好时，他们会疯狂地逃避，堕落自己，这种状 况通常对别人无害，却是伤害自己，让所有爱他们的人感到心碎。不过不用太担心，过一阵子他们自己会好的，他们天性的自我批判精神很快便会起作用。处女座一 般不会彻底堕落，堕落前可能都已留有余地，只是在等待着希望的来临。甚至有时堕落都是做给别人看的。

关于'内涵'处女座有涵养这一点是肯定的。在成长中不断吸取教训，不断学习，取人之长来丰富自己的内涵。因为他们感觉到情绪无法把握，而这些是自己可以踏踏实实做到的，将来一定有帮助。这是他们所追求的完美主义目标。

处女座就是一个表面神秘到难以琢磨，说穿了却又很简单的星座。最接近神的人？可能吧，处女座喜欢这样
来标榜自己。因为他们确实有超凡脱俗的一面。他们的内心接近了神，可是身在这个世界，不能不食人间烟火吧，所以必须得戴着一个面具活在这个世界上。

处女座喜欢和人说些暧昧的话，对心仪的对象却不好意思表白。
处女座希望别人了解自己，却又只将能公布的那一部分对外展示。
处女座是最有责任感的人了，可很多时候却害怕承担责任。

count down 12 hours

ah well~ around 12 hours ok?
den i'm one year older~

funny~ i just read something... tht describes me 100% correct~
and the most funny part was~ it sent from someone i dislike~
if i were u, i'd say :"(=.=)...".

ah well~ something like personality describtion mail~
it says virgo is like...ah well... too long lazy describe my self~
leave comment i try send~

reading some management notes~ yea well~ tomolo exam mar~

to those who came often~ please note~ i dun like celebration~ i dun mind celebrate for others~ but not me~ so~ keep your money~ hold your breath~ save them to warm ur tummy~ make your GF/BF happy~ etc etc~ dun waste them on me~ not much effect on me~

Privacy a.k.a freedom~

haha~ i just found out this little topic in my head~ kinda interesting~

i watched my friend~ getting into a relationship~ broke up~ getting another relation~ den broke up again~ den again and again~

just knocked my head~ realized he get into these mess because he didn't gave his the other half the privacy and freedom she should have~

yea~ 1st time heard? guy demanding too much from the gal~ demand in terms of getting jealous for her talking/outing/joking/playing(maybe flirting??) to her best male buddy~ and the gal finally can't stand it and made the call~

well~ i found this funny~ real funny~
there is girls that complaining tht his guy nvr put enuf attention on her, while this case the gal complained her guy sticking to her too much, controlism? hoho~ i oso dunno got this word anot~
=D
hmm~ wonder why he din met wif those girl who needs him 24 hour, 7 days per week and 365 days per year? bad luck huh?

ah~ well~ maybe after he met with one of those~ he might understand what his ex felt~ controlism~ (lmao)

yea~ what i think of~ being the other half of you, meaning shud be someone more important than normal ppl in ur heart. (this is wht she taught me~ =D) and shud have a share of your important time and moment in life, but~ i say but! shud remain some privacy & freedom~ =D
like having friends, good friends buddy~ etc etc~ yah~ i mean either male or female~

ah well~ u wont want ur wallet, handphone, computer, or MSN being secretly checked rite?
that hurts somehow~

hope those couples who faced these type of problems read a while~ shud can get some solutions from here rite? =D

haha~ felt like i have more to say~ but stucked~
ends here~

p.s:
last time i was like, dunno why~ purposely evaded most of my female friends~ @.@?
i oso dunno why~ maybe.... yah maybe... u know~

ah well~ i tried to get along with females~ but i think i failed~ yea~ i failed~
ugh ah~ forget to mention~ last time there was a girl~ layed her head on my shoulder~ dunno why she did tht~ but i immediately responded and asked her in a serious tone (i think i did...)
"WHAT U DOIN?", ah well~ i scared away her head~

in deep i think i enjoyed tht little moment~
but responded tht way because i hate being touched by people~ male or female~
i recall i trained my self quite some time to let my ex touch me~ (ah~ in terms of hugging etc~)
WELL!!! ME NO GAY!!! ALRITE? (LMAO!!)
juz kinda sensitive~ like itchy~ geli or whatever~

sigh~ i think i shouldn't enjoy it~ since i din feel anything from her~ missunderstood brings fatality... =.="
well~ responded tht way might be a good way tho~ =D

OMG my "PS" too long edy~

really ends here~

Fly HIGH!

wahahahaha! was smoking~
i like to look up~ whenever i'm staying by the window~
dun ask why~ i juz like to do so~
watching those clouds maybe?

uhm uhm~ ya~ watching the sky again~
suddenly something caught my eyes~ i saw a little fella flying~
keep turning round and round~
going higher and higher~
i was wow~ an eagle in PJ's sky~ haha~ that is something rare~
rumors say that they flew from the ZOO negara~ then flied away??
dunno they go home anot? or do they have home?

haha~ y am i writing about that fella?
well~ i think there is something common on me~
i fly like he does~ away from home~ reaching higher and higher~
but~ i just fell~ thats all~ lucky i'm home~
yah~ lucky i'm home~

less outing since i came back to home~ maybe i'm tired of outing edy? or home is already the best place i wanna stay after came back from school, work, etc etc~

ah well~ no idea why i wrote~ but it just striked my mind~ so i typed~
haha~ nothing big~ weird...

ends here...